all week. all work.
today was the only day i had done my work in a normal pace in two weeks. by saturday and until yesterday we have been so busy, twice this week i had no energy left to walk home. 24 hours is not enough for me, i am so drowning in workloads that even when i brought half of it home, it still wasn't enough to finish it. i was so deprived of sleep and so in need of energy that i turned to food for all the stress...
and i really had to sleep in the afternoon. even if i don't have to eat, i really have to sleep. it's like my 2 hours of peace before the war begins again at 4.
plus my nighttime is so drained watching discovery and national geographic. ok... and tfc (baduy ba hehe!)... ok, ok, and cartoon network!
"i eat pain for breakfast!!!
-wayne cramp
officially mrs bambi
pretty much everyone in the ceremony
trip pagdating sa bahay
our sweetest day came Aug 17, 2006 - two years in the making, but we finally did it!
it was so simple, it didn't rock, but it certainly didn't suck... it was actually nicer than i have imagined. well, if you can imagine how a simple wedding can happen, it was certainly what i hoped for, and more.
after the quick ceremony at 2 pm, the five of us went to bambu for lunch and then went home, by 10 we were in ponderosa with bambi's close friends for dinner.
i was so excited to open the gifts!
my boss actually gave me that escada i was trying to buy since i got here!
see most of our photos by clicking the picture
ooo, mac babies are gonna love me for this!
i've just found a way to join in the yahoo public chat rooms in mac!
hooray!!!
now, thousands of mac babies won't be out of place anymore!!!
i'll update later!
ooo, look at my new friends...
wah! i know for sure that melody, ryan and nick's myspace are real, but heart's? dunno, she has her ABS friends in her list, too... well, whatever, it doesn't hurt either way..
although when i saved the safari archive of her myspace it showed "www.myspace.com-gilbert_heart"... who the hell is gilbert?!?
and i sure doubt angel aquino's myspace... not unusual, since there are lots of fake profiling happening to popular peeps... ryan has it in friendster.
but it makes me happy that my profile has been viewed 43 times since i joined 2 days ago... dang, and in friendster i've only been viewed 9x since august 1...
melody added me!
yeeeyyyy!!!!
and ryan and nick lazzarini, too.
aww... bless them!
im number 7359 in melody's list of friends. wow, this girl has a lot of fans!
oh crap!
i created an account in myspace to help a friend,
but i was too late -- they have broken up already!
as i was thinking "what the hell am i suppose to do with that space now?!?"...
like a lightbulb flickering in my head, i remembered melody's profile - hey, she's in myspace, too!
a few clicks and hey - i added her, nick and ryan as fast as i can...
but - would they accept it?
i dunno, let's see...
ate susan is back!
...alive and kicking!
she brought some pictures, too!
wow, imagine living here... is this africa or what?!?
heyyyy, may picture ng mga bahay na ganyan sa bahay ng lola ko ah....
but she'll go back there on friday. i guess she just came back here to reassess what she really wants to do with her freakin' life.
hehe, parang drama ko yata yan dati ah!
buhay pa rin ang rose ko, after what... 5 days? 
but--- who's gonna eat the cake?
im happy today...
not because he gave me a rose and (another!) blackforest cake (with candles pa!), 
but because he finally understood what i wanted him to understand. and he made me understand that it was not really his fault if he doesn't regard birthdays as important dates... poor boi.
my rockstar boyfriend..
eto pa o:
kinakanta nya dito yung lakas tama... makahead-banger pala yun!
still--- who's gonna eat that freakin' cake?
what is wrong with us?!?
so this morning i stopped expecting he'll read my mind (finally realized guys aren't that sensitive to carry out the signals... my bad) and i blurted out what's been bothering me.
and yeah, he didn't get it still... what's wrong with expecting to be treated a lil special on your birthday? doesn't every celebrant have that right?
he asked me if that was so important that i had to give up everything we had..
he never got it, he never will.. so i just gave up and said truthfully that i was expecting to spend some time with him last night, that he never paid attention to me and i pretty much spent my birthday alone...
he called 5 or six times after that.. but i had to work so we were always interrupted.
til i went home and still, the fickle finger of fate gave that moment that i was preparing my lunch that he called. damn it, i missed it again...
then at three he called again... finally!
i told him not to give me anything, just his time... i want to spend some time with him because this past weeks he's been so caught up with booting that he never notices whatever's happening each night...
i hope he catches up on that. what is wrong with him?!?
i hate it when he says he's dumb, because he's not. he's just insensitive sometimes... i discovered ( the hard way! ) that boys are numb in nature. he is a thick-skinned creature who has a very soft heart inside...
he said he never meant to be insensitive, and i needn't be jealous of his chat mates... im still his number one, er, only one... right...
then everything started falling in place again. i don't like it when it's his turn to apologize, because he's so truthful that it melts my heart... mmm.. i still love him in spite of what happened.
what is wrong with me??!?
awww.. my birthday sucked!
big time...
first, my worst day at work - my boss didn't know it was my birthday so he was totally clueless as to why im so giddy and smiley-faced all morning.
and such a screwball! daang - everything i did was messed up! anyhoo, i fixed it before noon but when i went home with bambi i was such in a bad mood... i didn't appreciate the taste of that bad-ass cake that he brought me..
and after eating he started chatting again. so there i was, 15 minutes to 12 til 15 minutes after 12 am alone in the bath thinking why i was disappointed at my special day...
maybe because i wanted it to be special, and bambi, of all people i expected to carry it out, didn't care much of those things. he kept asking what's wrong and it's my fault that i lied and just waited for him to realize what's causing the freaking frown lines on my face..
he just chatted til i fell asleep...
i felt him snuggle behind me and kissed my hand but i was too sleepy to move... it was sweet though... i love moments like that...
what a day...
(i wore red para feeling masaya birthday ko.. wa epek tol..)
so you think you can dance final show
well, since i pretty much know who won since i visited rickey's blog, i was just surprised that nick almost cried when they announced him as the winner...
he deserves it anyway, like they said, good vs evil = good always win...
and we liked their broadway number and (waahh!!!) that freakin' disco dance, too!
hey did you see Nick whisper "I love you" to melody just after he was announced the winner? did anyone else notice? it was so sweet!
i keep searching for a video clip of him and melody during audition about them being friends and goofing around, or maybe a video tribute to them in sytycd, but no luck...
that ribbon guy was there, too... WTF???!?
piss off the birthday girl!
i celebrated my birthday last year in manila. went to town centre alone... then bought ice cream for everyone later on....
i thought it was the international rule of birthdays that every birthday celebrant has not to be such a screwball. isn't your day suppose to be colorful and fun?
well, hey, i had one birthday that i had a terrible headache, another one where there was a typhoon and my only hope to get out of the house was scratched, then there's another one where i had a lump on my cheek for hitting a store wall on my way to school.
im such a klutz..
anyway, since the first rule was broken this morning im just wishing to chill this afternoon... and chill is exactly what im doing... all by myself... alone.
huhu! as if being scolded on your birthday isn't enough, here i am eating crinkles and iced tea having nothing to do but surf...
it's such a sad thing to spend your day alone...
i wonder what's bambi's surprise to me later.. i hate spending birthdays like i did most of my previous ones. acting like nothing's special...
i dont' know why, but ever since i realized that .... ahem... ehehe... that i am not ugly (ugh, still hurts!) i suddenly feel special everyday... like you're suppose to celebrate somethin'.. it's weird!
ok, the wacko in me is in full force again...
song of the day: alipin (over and over again!)
bambi's chat mates updates me on the latest songs in manila. he learned to boot, btw... so don't mess with him now...
female + leo + brown eyes + black hair + lover + fighter + listener + whiner extraordinaire + clumsy + emotional + private + quiet + fickle + wanderer + big dreamer + loner + reader + writer + graphic designer + artist - charcoal, watercolor, pencil, illustrator & photoshop + scribble freak + anti-procrastinator + unpredictable + reliable
[[ mY LifE ]]
has a very baaad memory + a big scaredy-cat + creatively inclined, but terribly unmotivated at times + efficient whenever passionate + skeptical sometimes + want to learn how to drive + college dropout (hahaha!) + most of the time confused + angsty + believes in karma + thinks bambi is yummy + blaring headphones when working resulted to inability to hear people sometimes + laid back + forget faces, remember names + has mild oc tendencies + trying to escape reality at most times + still looking for inner peace + terribly afraid to see supernatural things
[[ mY mEss ]]
shopping + sleeping + drawing + hp + green tea + cold pizza + pasta + fries + jackie chan + fight club + hale + pucca + r&b, soul & acoustic - not a music-lover, but a sound-tripper + candles + photography + guitar + painting + charmed + itunes
[[ mY buSiNEss ]]
life goals... to kick ass and drive a 2-door m&m-yellow-colored lancer
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phils vacation 07
officially mrs bambi!
drive trip
trip to manila 2005 aLbum
bambi & me aLbum
tree of life aLbum
enchanted 2001 aLbum
school & friends aLbum
family aLbum
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